20 week update

I hit 20 weeks and everything started to fall apart.

What happened? Last Saturday I started having contractions (braxton hicks), just a few a day. Monday and Tuesday I started getting more and they were becoming more frequent. By Wednesday I was having on average of 5 an hour. They aren’t painful, just uncomfortable. Luckily on Thursday I had my monthly appointment with my OB and she did a sonogram and checked my cervix to make sure it wasn’t thinning out at all from the contractions. Everything looked good, the cervix hasn’t thinned out any and the boys looked great.

She told me to “take it easy” and by that — she means don’t do anything. I can still go to work but she said once my cervix starts to thin I will be off work. It’s difficult for me to not to do anything. I had planned on painting the nursery this past weekend, but because I can’t do that now, Jonathan had to step up and paint it all by himself. He did a great job and it looks awesome. I’ll post pictures once we get it all finished.

So needless to say I was on the couch the majority of the weekend.

Then yesterday, we had a fun time at church, and let me add, this was only our 2 time to visit the church. My brother and his girlfriend had come in and sat by us, so we were all there just singing and worshiping and I started to feel a little lightheaded so I sat down. When the pastor got up and started the message, Jonathan went out to get me some juice to drink. That seemed to help and for about 4-5 minutes I felt semi-normal. Then all of a sudden it hit me again, and this time it hit hard… I leaned forward and put my head down hoping that would help, and well… that’s all I remember.

The next thing I remember was opening my eyes and my head was on Jonathan’s shoulder, well as close to his shoulder as I can get – its kinda high up there. Then I knew what happened. Once I came to a little bit more and was able to walk, we left and came home. I ended up staying on the couch all day because I was pretty out of it. I was also very nauseous all day, which I haven’t been in over a month. And by the end of the night, my body finally gave in and well, lets just say I lost everything I ate for the day.

I was still pretty out of it last night and still getting lightheaded so we decided that I would stay home today from work. This morning I was still getting lightheaded and didn’t feel “normal” but as the day went on I started to feel a little bit better. I made a call into my cardiologist and OB’s offices. Of course my OB was out of the office today, so I talked to the nurse and she basically said if I still feel bad tomorrow I should come in and see my Dr. and I will see my cardiologist Wednesday morning. Since I have been on the couch for 3 days I haven’t had too many contractions. Some, but not too many. She told me if I have 6 or more in an hour to call her. I’ll keep you updated on everything.

The boys are doing great, the HR’s were 151 and 146 and they’re moving around like crazy. Ian was having hiccups when she was trying to get his heart rate so that was funny to watch, and of course he wouldn’t cooperate. He’s our little wiggler, in every sonogram he’s the one wiggling all around and won’t let them get a good picture. Then there’s Hayden who is a good little boy and just lays there so we can get a picture. He does move around a lot too, just at better times. He is the one I feel move and kick more often. The last few days I have felt them both move and kick a lot. I have to say that is probably the best part of being pregnant, because the rest is for the birds!

We will see the high risk doc next week for another sonogram and we’ll get to see how much they have grown… it better be a lot because I know my belly sure hasn’t just gotten big overnight for nothing. Well, this has gotten to be a long post, so I’ll update you next week after my appointment with the high risk doc.

I Would Die For That

I was surfing the internet today (what else is there to do) and found this video on a blog I found. I have never heard of this song before and it hits home on so many levels for me and any other woman that has gone through infertility. It’s a beautiful song but for some of you girls out there that I know (you know who you are) might want a box of kleenex with you when you watch it.

The artist is Kellie Coffey and you can read her story about becoming a mom here.

Enjoy!

An update on our 20 week appointment coming next…

Baby update

I realized that I haven’t posted anything about the babies, pregnancy, etc for a while now. Sorry about that, but here’s an update for you. I am now 16 weeks and feeling quite a bit better. I had a tough first trimester with 24 hour nausea and getting sick. Morning sickness is a joke, mine was evening sickness for the most part. As long as I took my zofran (medicine for nausea/vomiting) I was much better and able to keep food down. I am actually still taking it most days of the week because if I don’t I get pretty nauseous. Now that the nausea has eased up a bit, I am having to deal with wonderful headaches, I’m not sure which is worse, nausea or headaches. Let’s just say so far, I’m not one of those women that loves pregnancy! I will absolutely love the end result though, so I’m not complaining one bit.

we love going to doctors appointments because we get to see the babies and I have had a sonogram every month from my doctor (3 so far). Its crazy to see how much they grow just in a month. The last sonogram, which was last Thursday we were actually able to find out that one of the babies is a boy! The other one was moving around quite a bit and the umbilical cord kept getting in the way so we weren’t able to get a good enough picture to find out what he/she was. My doctor thinks its another boy but we couldn’t confirm it, so it could still be a little girl. We didn’t get any good pictures of the sonogram on Thursday so I don’t have anything to show ya’ll. I am going for a level II sonogram (a high risk sono) in about a week and a half to look for birth defects, etc. It is a pretty detailed sonogram so we should find out for sure what the sex is of the babies and I’ll have much better pictures to post from that.

It was amazing to see them on the screen and watch them moving all around, stretching and what not. One of them looked like they waved at us (we have genius fetuses already-ha). The are about 5 1/2 to 6 inches long and doing great.

Here are some of the pictures of the babies “growing up”, they grow up so fast…just kidding, actually at this point, not fast enough!

8 weeks old…they look like a couple of blobs at this point.
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12 weeks old…my little alien and monkey babies….Yes Margie, I did call them that!
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I’ll show you what they look like at about 17/18 weeks in a week or two. To be continued…

New House

We finally moved and are about 90% settled in. The only rooms we really have left to do are the guest room and babies room. We are waiting to find out for sure what the sex of the babies are before we do anything with their room so its all kind of just thrown in there right now. The guest room is set up but its kind of the catch all room, anything that doesn’t have a spot in the house ends up there until I figure out what to do with it.

I ended up at Kirklands about a week ago and they were having a big sale so of course I got some stuff to “update” the decor. There are a couple of rooms we will be painting eventually, the dining room, kitchen, our room and nursery….but I think the only two we’ll be painting anytime soon will be the nursery and our room. And by soon, I mean within the next year…as much as I would love to get it all done and painted, I can’t stand the thought of painting right now.

Well, here are a few pictures that Jonathan took of the house, before all the decor was up, buy you can get an idea of what it looks like. To get a better look you’ll just have to come on by!!

Here is the front of the house, we’re still waiting on the grass that they laid to green up.
I love the big front porch, we need to get some chairs and a little table or something to put out there so we can sit out on the porch.
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This is the dining room with the lovely light fixture that I can’t wait to replace!
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The living room
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The kitchen and dining area looking onto the living room
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Our bedroom, other than this one section of the room, I have no clue what to do with it. If you come by you have to give me ideas of what to do.
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I just got the new comforter set yesterday for our bedroom. If you know of anyone that wants/needs a king size comforter set let me know. We have our old one that is just sitting in a closet now. Its about 3 years old and does have some snags in the comforter from our dogs nails but overall it’s still in good shape. It looks like this….
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So there you have it, those are the main areas of the house. There are three other bedrooms (being used as a guest room, babies room and office) to round out the house. I love being this close to our families and have enjoyed it so much, it was well worth the move.

From infertility to pregnancy

Now that I’m pregnant, I am experiencing a wide range of emotions, from joy to apprehension. It can be difficult to relax and enjoy a pregnancy after dealing with infertility for so long. Going from infertility to finding out your pregnant will leave you, not only feeling like you are back on the rollercoaster, but almost like you are in denial of the pregnancy. It’s just hard to imagine that it finally happened and I guess in a way you can’t believe it. It is hard to keep from thinking that something will happen between the time you find out your pregnant to the time you go to your first doctors appointment. While the whole time you are extremely excited, you don’t want to get your hopes up. My biggest fear was that we would get to the doctor and there wouldn’t be a heartbeat. But, to my surprise, there were TWO…and both had excellent heartbeats! They both had a heartrate of 171 and it was so cool to see that little flickering heart beating.

The goal of every couple dealing with infertility is to have a positive pregnancy test. When that finally happens, most couples feel both elation and fear. For many couples who have experienced the hope and disappointment of infertility, it may be hard to believe something is really “going right.” The only way I can even comprehend how this happened to us, is that it is a complete gift from God and for that I will be eternally grateful for my two little miracles.

Infertility is about so much more than the inability to conceive. It can rock a woman’s very foundations — her sense of control over her own future, her faith in her own body, and her feelings about herself as a woman. It can result in a loss of innocence, as a woman finds herself on the wrong side of the statistics. Suddenly, bad things don’t just happen to other people. Despite all her efforts, she is unable to achieve the experience that many women see as a birthright. Pregnancy likely cannot be achieved except with substantial medical help, and may very well never be achieved at all.

When a pregnancy finally does occur, it can be difficult for a woman who has experienced infertility to view herself as just another pregnant woman. This long-desired pregnancy may not be the joyous experience I had always dreamed about. The experience of infertility brings its own baggage to a pregnancy: grief for previous losses or inability to get pregnant; anxiety; and fear that my body, unable to conceive on its own, may not be able to carry a pregnancy.

Going through a pregnancy after infertility has it own unique challenges:

* You may feel like you don’t belong. You feel like the average pregnant woman can’t understand your feelings, yet you may feel uncomfortable talking about your pregnancy with your infertile friends who are still undergoing treatments.

* You distrust your body’s ability to carry a pregnancy since it took so much medical intervention to get pregnant in the first place.

* Fear of preparing for a birth, buying maternity clothes, or purchasing baby items so as not to “jinx” a pregnancy. Although, I’m so excited I can’t help myself so this one is pretty much thrown out the window for me.

* I think the biggest one for me is the fear of complaining about pregnancy symptoms or discomforts because you might seem ungrateful. I feel like if I complain about anything people will just think, “you asked for it, you wanted to get pregnant”. And because I did want it so bad and went through so much to get it, I don’t feel like I have any right to complain. Now I’m not complaining about this, but 24 hour nausea and vomiting is not fun…but I take it as a good sign, that’s why I don’t complain. The truth is, pregnancy can be uncomfortable, but disliking frequent vomiting, 24 hour nausea, or heartburn does not mean I cherish the pregnancy any less. The way I see it, the two little babies I will have in the end will be completely worth all the discomforts in the world.

Finding Peace

Just thought we would give you guys an update on the baby front. February was our last month of fertility treatments. After a year full of some sort of fertility treatment, including a total of 4 IUI’s…February was the last month of it all. At that visit I talked with my doctor and we both decided that enough is enough and agreed that February would be our last month of treatment. She did, however, want me to at least have a consult with a fertility specialist who deals with a certain type of infertility, so I agreed to have a consult with him and discuss our options, including IVF.

It is funny though because at that visit with my doctor, she did a sonogram and it showed this…

It looks like a peace sign, well an upside down peace sign, and my doctor was joking and saying maybe it was a sign – Haha. I thought there might be something to this “sign” but not in the same way my doctor was thinking.

For 2 years I’ve been praying for a baby and when it didn’t happen I was frustrated, disappointed, angry and every other emotion possible. So since around December I have no longer prayed for God to give us a baby but for God to make me OK with the fact that we won’t have our “own” baby.

I prayed for peace with the situation, that I would find peace in it and know that God was in control. So for me, the “peace” sign meant something else. I took it as a sign that this was God trying to give me peace with the situation and that we would build our family through adoption.

So we went ahead and did the last IUI and I went home, knowing that in a few weeks all the physical discomforts, drugs, etc that go along with infertility treatment would finally be over.

Today I went back to the doctor for a check up and some blood work, and left with another picture…this time it wasn’t a peace sign, it was a whole lot better!

Yep, that’s a baby….that’s our baby, Baby Blundy!! I’M PREGNANT! actually I should say those are our BABIES!!! We’re having twins!!!!!! So I guess that “peace” sign did mean something. Sometime in mid November we will get to introduce to you baby boy or girl Blundell. We are beyond excited and thank God everyday for this miracle, and all of you who have prayed for us and shared in our journey. It’s not over yet, but I can finally see a happy ending in sight.

Spring

I was just thinking about how much I love spring and how it births new life! All the flowers and trees start to bloom again after a long hard winter. We started the week with a few of these on our rose bush…

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And, by yesterday we had a few of these…

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Hopefully we’ll have a great spring before summer really heats things up.

Casa de Blundell

Things are getting interesting at Casa de Blundell. But more about that in a later post 😉 We have had several people come see the house in the last week or two. We’ve had 3 offers so far but they have all been horrible, and I repeat HORRIBLE offers. We had one offer that we actually accepted, but never heard back from them after we accepted it so needless to say, it fell through. That offer led us to put a contract on our house in Forney. Now I just want to sell this house so I can move to the new one and be closer to our families. So if you know anyone that wants a great house in Red Oak, send them my way!

On another note, we got a call this week from the agency saying they had a 15 month old for adoption and were calling to see if we were interested. While a part of me said, “yes, I’ll take him/her”. We ended up telling them we were going to wait because it was a little older than we are looking for and we would like to get moved and settled before we bring a little one in. I just don’t want to have to uproot a child right after they have been uprooted and placed in our home shortly before.

Stay tuned, you never know what will happen next in the lives of the Blundy’s….

Quiet House

Things can change overnight…obviously. We went from leaving work one Monday morning just me and Jonathan and by the time we got home from work we had two extra little ones in the house. How life can change in an instant. Well yesterday life changed again for us, but this time not unexpectedly. We left work yesterday morning with two little boys that were going to daycare and came home last evening just Jonathan and myself. For those of you who are lost…the boys were placed in another home yesterday. There were spots that opened up in a group home with children their age and the foster mom has more experience with that age group/discipline issues. Its what is best for the boys. We will miss them, they are really sweet kids! We are now back to waiting for a new placement. This time we expect to be waiting longer because we are asking for such a younger age (8 months or younger) and only 1, no siblings this time.

Here are some things I learned from being a “mom” to two little toddlers!

* Your time is no longer your time
* You are constantly on the go
* Sleep….what’s that
* Expect 4 to 5 tantrums a day
* Bedtime is my favorite time of day
* Expect to have toys, diapers, clothes, shoes, juice cups and such EVERYWHERE
* Its hard to have your house ready to show for selling purposes all the time with two toddlers
* It’s easier just to eat at home
* Our schedule revolves around nap time…give or take 2 hours
* They will often mimic each others behavior – good or bad – especially when they see it gets an adults attention
* They don’t need a lot to be content
* They can be content with the basics- a blanket and a few toys-until they see someone else has something different.
* The best way to avoid meltdowns/tantrums is to redirect their attention–but sometimes no amount of redirecting will help.
* It’s difficult when you only have 2 people that can watch your kids and they live 45 minutes away.

But we also learned that having two little ones in the house can be fun, enjoyable and exciting. It was nice to see how, even for a short time, we changed their lives and their behavior. Knowing we had an impact in their lives and hopefully that will affect them throughout the rest of their life. We are excited to get a baby and have a whole new set of challenges! We’ll keep you all updated.