This picture pretty much sums up yesterday for me–just substitute the cigarettes for chocolate and the prozac for a massage and it will all be okay!

I never believed in the phrase “Bridezilla” until yesterday. I can honestly say that yesterday was one of the worst days I have had in a very, very long time (I’m talking years). It started out at 4:45am when my alarm went off, I woke up just as tired as I was when I went to sleep…work was pretty bad, by 10:00 I had 2 nurses gripe me out for no apparent reason-I though I was being very nice and considerate. (I’m assuming they just let their frustration out on me for something else that was going on). Among other things, It was just a bad day at work overall. Next we had a “miss-communication” about living arrangements when Jonathan and I get married (long story). I basically just feel like I have lived out of boxes since last May when I moved out of my old apartment and haven’t had a true “home”. I’m ready to feel at home again somewhere! Anyway, back to the story…lastly, I was just frustrated with my heart problems…I hadn’t felt good for a couple of days and it finally just caught up with me yesterday and felt REALLY bad. But I’m going to see my cardiologist on Friday morning to pray it goes well and we might get this thing finally figured out and under control. I know a lot of people who have more things to be stressed out about than me so I know I will be ok and–this too will pass! Now, I wouldn’t say that I was a bridezilla by any means, just stressed out and probably griped out a few people who are closest to me. So I’m sorry if I did get testy with anyone yesterday, I truly didn’t mean it and my frustration just happened to be aimed at you at that moment. PLEASE forgive me!!

I was listening to a CD on my way to work this morning and one of my favorite songs came on…Never Alone by Barlow Girl. If you haven’t heard it before I suggest you try to find it and listen to it. Here are the lyrics to the song:

I waited for you today
But you didn’t show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you’d be there
And though I haven’t seen you
Are you still there?

Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can’t feel you by my side
So I’ll hold tight to what I know
You’re here and I’m never alone

And though I cannot see you
And I can’t explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You’ve placed in my life.
We cannot separate
‘Cause you’re part of me.
And though you’re invisible
I’ll trust the unseen.

Chorus

I love this song because it is a reminder of how much Christ loves us and will always be there for us. It basically says that when we talk to Christ and don’t hear him reply it’s because our walk with Him isn’t as close as it should be. He is always there and will always hear us, we just may not hear Him…that’s when we need to strengthen our relationship. On the flip side, at times, He may be silent in our lives, and it isn’t necessarily because we aren’t close enough with Him. I heard someone say something a while back at a conference… he said, “When Christ is silent, He is not still.” Just because Christ isn’t talking to you He is still showing you things and working in your life. Anyway, back to the song above…the part that I love the most is when it says “And though you’re invisible, I’ll trust the unseen.” So even though you can’t hear Him, He’s there and just trust the unseen! Simply put–Have Faith!

I never thought the day would come where I would have to ask “Permission” from someone else to spend my money…well, okay so it’s not entirely ALL my money. Jonathan and I just made a pretty good sized purchase and before I could buy it I had to ask him if it was okay–Wow, I can feel my independence slipping away. I am a pretty independent person and always have been, but it just dawned on me the other day that in about 2 months, I’m about to lose some of that. I guess that comes with the territory huh. But I would rather be married with less independence than single with all the independence in the world. I’m sure there’s a lot more that I’m going to have to get use to though.

Jonathan and I just went live with our wedding website. Check it out
sometime – www.casadeblundell.com

We also both have new email addreses through this domain.
laurie@casadeblundell.com
jonathan@casadeblundell.com

Jonathan's blog has already moved to this location and mine will be
soon
www.casadeblundell.com/jonathan

I got this in an email today and couldn’t help but share it. It is hilarious and I can just picture this happening at church…

One Sunday morning, the pastor noticed little Alex standing in the
foyer of the church staring up at a large plaque. It was covered with
names with small American flags mounted on either side of it.

The seven year old had been staring at the plaque for some time, so
the pastor walked up, stood beside the little boy, and said quietly,
“Good morning Alex.”

“Good morning Pastor,” he replied, still focused
on the plaque. “Pastor, what is this?” he asked.

The pastor said, “Well, son, it’s a memorial to all the young men and
women who died in the service.”

Soberly, they just stood together, staring at the large plaque.

Finally, little Alex’s voice, barely audible and trembling with fear,
asked, “Which service, the 9:45 or the 11:15 ?”

As some of you know, I love to re-do old furniture and make it look all
pretty again. I have re-finished a lot of my furniture and I decided to
re-finish a dresser that Jonathan had so it would match the rest of the
furniture. Well, I started on it yesterday and forgot how much work you
have to put into it. I just got the drawers sanded and that took a lot
of work. Granted it probably took more work than necessary because the
type A personality and perfectionist in me was coming out. That and I
had a dog circling me and barking at the sander the whole time. But I
still love to do it…there’s just something about taking something that
has been beat up or is just old and making it look new again. I’ll show
you pictures when I’m all finished with it.

So my dress came in about a month ago and when I tried it on I couldn’t
zip it up all the way….because I’m a McFatty! Just kidding, somehow my
dress was made a little too small. So I went and had my alterations
done yesterday and hopefully I’ll be able to breathe when I zip the
dress up. Actually, I’m just thankful that I will be able to zip it up
all the way. Let me tell you, alterations aren’t cheap either! But then
again, nothing about a wedding is cheap. Now let’s just hope my dress
is finished in time for my bridal portraits, and it fits!