Run with the Devils

Texas Monthly has a great article on a trip down Devils River in Texas this month.
Even the beginning is quite intriguing:

DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, take a trip down the Devils River. You are not welcome there. If you so much as set your big toe on the river’s privately owned banks, you are likely to be arrested, hauled down to the Val Verde County courthouse, and prosecuted for trespassing. You may even be shot at.

None the less, I’m totally inspired to buy a kayak and make the two day trip down the river. Anyone interested?
Unfortunatley, you’ll have to buy a subscription or pick one up at a store in Texas to read the rest. But I always say, for Texas Monthly it’s worth it. Great design, good articles — and all about Texas. Can’t get much better than that.
They also have a fun ethics quiz on Tom DeLay.
He may be crooked – but they still love him in Sugar Land.

Bono: in conversation with Michka Assayas

Brian Bailey has a quick review of Bono: in conversation with Michka Assayas. Bailey is the Web Director at Fellowship Church and has been blogging lately about his vacation to Florida.
But he gives a quick preview of the book (which I’ve been meaning to track down and read – come on Belton Public Library).
He gives an interesting quote from Bono…

Coolness might help in your negotiation with people through the world, maybe, but it is impossible to meet God with sunglasses on. It is impossible to meet God without abandon, without exposing yourself, being raw.

How often do we try and wear our sunglasses into the presence of the Almighty?

I’m sorry

Is it just me, or do the words, “I’m sorry” not have any real meaning today?
Maybe it’s because of who I keep hearing it from.
If someone makes mistakes or messes up everyday and says, “I’m sorry” after every failure, without any change in behavior, should it mean the same thing?
Scripture says we should forgive 70×7 times. But sometimes I admit, I have a lot of problems with that.
If you’re an employer or manager and your workers keep doing things over and over again, without really thinking about what they might be doing wrong and then, “I’m sorry” is all you hear for their reasoning – do you keep forgiving?
What if you’re a parent or family member and every day you hear, “I’m sorry,” for the same thing over and over again? Is there any difference?
I admit, I like a little mercy every now and then, but if all I get is mercy, what incentive do I have to shape up and do better next time?
If there’s no punishment for the action, I’ll keep sinning.
Paul writes,

What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

A friend said recently, after being teased about not doing something at work, “Why go out of my way to work harder, there’s no repercussion for not doing something.”
One of the great scenes from Office Space tells this story in a new modern twist.

Peter Gibbons: You see Bob, it’s not that I’m lazy, it’s that I just don’t care.
Bob Porter: Don’t… don’t care?
Peter Gibbons: It’s a problem of motivation, all right? Now if I work my ass off and Initech ships a few extra units, I don’t see another dime, so where’s the motivation? And here’s another thing, I have eight different bosses right now.
Bob Porter: Eight?
Peter Gibbons: Eight, Bob. So that means when I make a mistake, I have eight different people coming by to tell me about it. That’s my only real motivation is not to be hassled, that, and the fear of losing my job. But you know, Bob, that will only make someone work just hard enough not to get fired.

If the only motivation someone has is to do the bare minimum, they’ll continue messing up and continue doing nothing more than say, “I’m sorry.”
And will never learn to take responsibility for their actions.

By the Way

BTW… for those interested, I’m sure I’ll get around to posting an entry about this weekend fairly soon. Maybe even this afternoon. I’ll have some photos posted for sure.
Also, I’ve been thinking lately about my “dream” of writing a book.
I’m still working and hatching out a theme or subject matter, but right now, its come down to Christian Wrestlers or Marketing the Gospel in the 21st Century.
Any thoughts.
And of course my other “dream” of running/programming a Christian Radio Station for Belton, Texas that would reach Baylor University and Waco, Texas A&M and College Station and University of Texas and Austin is still flowing through my head constantly.
Aren’t dreams great? I only hope one day God will give me the wisdom, strength and resources to see both of my dreams come true.

Psalm like it hot

I’ve been looking to find this for a while and haven’t found it in any brick and mortar bookstores.
But thanks to @U2, I’ve finally found Bono’s opening to The Book of Psalms. It’s part of a series of Biblical books, published in 1999, introduced by celebraties and others.

The publication of the King James version of the Bible, translated between 1603 and 1611, coincided with an extraordinary flowering of English literature and is universally acknowledged as the greatest influence on English-language literature in history. Now, world-class literary writers introduce the books of the King James Bible in a series of beautifully designed, small-format volumes. The introducers’ passionate, provocative, and personal engagements with he spirituality and the language of the test make the Bible come alive as a stunning work of literature and remind us of its overwhelming contemporary relevance.

Psalm Like It Hot
What Elvis was to rock’n’roll, David was to the blues. Bono, U2’s singer and a campaigner to end Third World debt, argues that the psalms truly rock the soul.
The Guardian (U.K.), October 31, 1999

Bono

Explaining belief has always been difficult. How do you explain a love and logic at the heart of the universe when the world is so out of kilter with this? Has free will got us crucified? And what about the dodgy characters who inhabit the tome known as the Bible, who hear the voice of God? Explaining faith is impossible: vision over visibility; instinct over intellect. A songwriter plays a chord with the faith that he will hear the next one in his head.
One of the writers of the psalms was a musician, a harp-player whose talents were required at “the palace” as the only medicine that would still the demons of the moody and insecure King Saul of Israel. It is a thought that still inspires: Marilyn sang for Kennedy, the Spice Girls for Prince Charles.
At the age of 12, I was a fan of David. He felt familiar, like a pop star could feel familiar. The words of the psalms were as poetic as they were religious, and he was a star. Before David could fulfil the prophecy and become the king of Israel, he had to take quite a beating. He was forced into exile and ended up in a cave in some no-name border town facing the collapse of his ego and abandonment by God. But this is where the soap opera got interesting. This is where David was said to have composed his first psalm — a blues. That’s what a lot of the psalms feel like to me, the blues. Man shouting at God — “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me?” (Psalm 22).
I hear echoes of this holy row when un-holy bluesman Robert Johnson howls, “There’s a hellhound on my trail” or Van Morrison sings, “Sometimes, I feel like a motherless child.” Texas Alexander mimics the psalms in “Justice Blues”: “I cried Lord my father, Lord kingdom come. Send me back my woman, then thy will be done.” Humorous, sometimes blasphemous, the blues was backslidin’ music but, by its very opposition, it flattered the subject of its perfect cousin, gospel.
Abandonment and displacement are the stuff of my favourite psalms. The Psalter may be a font of gospel music, but for me it’s despair that the psalmist really reveals and the nature of his special relationship with God. Honesty, even to the point of anger. “How long, Lord? Wilt thou hide thyself forever?” (Psalm 89), or “Answer me when I call” (Psalm 5).
Psalms and hymns were my first taste of inspirational music. I liked the words, but I wasn’t sure about the tunes — with the exception of Psalm 23, “The Lord is my Shepherd.” I remember them as droned and chanted rather than sung. But they prepared me for the honesty of John Lennon, the baroque language of Bob Dylan and Leonard Cohen, the open throat of Al Green and Stevie Wonder. When I hear these singers, I am reconnected to a part of me I have no explanation for — my “soul” I guess.
Words and music did for me what solid, even rigorous, religious argument could never do — they introduced me to God, not belief in God, more an experiential sense of GOD. Over art, literature, girls, my mates, the way in to my spirit was a combination of words and music. As a result, the Book of Psalms always felt open to me and led me to the poetry of Ecclesiastes, the Song of Solomon, the book of John…My religion could not be fiction, but it had to transcend facts. It could be mystical, but not mythical.
My mother was Protestant, my father Catholic. Anywhere other than Ireland that would be unremarkable. The “Prods” at that time had the better tunes and the Catholics had the better stage-gear. My mate Gavin Friday used to say: “Roman Catholicism is the Glamrock of religion” with its candles and psychedelic colours — cardinal blues, scarlets and purples — smoke bombs of incense and the ring of the little bell. The Prods were better at the bigger bells, they could afford them. In Ireland, wealth and Protestantism went together. To have either was to have collaborated with the enemy — that is, Britain. This did not fly in our house.
After going to Mass at the top of the hill, in Finglas on the north side of Dublin, my father waited outside the little Church of Ireland chapel at the bottom of the hill, where my mother had brought her two sons.
I kept myself awake thinking of the clergyman’s daughter and let my eyes dive into the cinema of the stained glass. These Christian artists had invented the movies. Light projected through colour to tell their story. In the Seventies the story was “the Troubles,” and the Troubles came through the stained glass, with rocks thrown more in mischief than in anger. But the message was the same: the country was to be divided along sectarian lines. I had a foot in both camps, so my Goliath became religion itself: I began to see religion as the perversion of faith. I began to see God everywhere else. In girls, fun, music, justice and still — despite the lofty King James translation — the Scriptures.
I loved these stories for the basest reasons. These were action movies, with some hardcore men and women, the car chases, the casualties, the blood and guts. There was very little kissing.
David was a star, the Elvis of the Bible, if we can believe the chiselling of Michelangelo. And unusually for such a “rock star,” with his lust for power, lust for women, lust for life, he had the humility of one who knew his gift worked harder than he ever would. He even danced naked in front of his troops — the biblical equivalent of the royal walkabout. David was definitely more performance artist than politician.
Anyway, I stopped going to churches and got into a different kind of religion. Don’t laugh. That’s what being in a rock ‘n’ roll band is. Showbiz is shamanism, music is worship. Whether it’s worship of women or their designer, the world or its destroyer, whether it comes from that ancient place we call soul or simply the spinal cortex, whether the prayers are on fire with a dumb rage or dove-like desire, the smoke goes upwards, to God or something you replace God with — usually yourself.
Years ago, lost for words and with 40 minutes of recording time left before the end of our studio time, we were still looking for a song to close our third album, War. We wanted to put something explicitly spiritual on the record to balance the politics and romance of it; like Bob Marley or Marvin Gaye would. We thought about the psalms — Psalm 40. There was some squirming. We were a very “white” rock group, and such plundering of the scriptures was taboo for a white rock group unless it was in the “service of Satan.” Psalm 40 is interesting in that it suggests a time in which grace will replace karma, and love will replace the very strict laws of Moses (in other words, fulfil them). I love that thought. David, who committed some of the most selfish as well as selfless acts, was depending on it. That the scriptures are brim full of hustlers, murderers, cowards, adulterers and mercenaries used to shock me. Now it is a source of great comfort.
“40” became the closing song at U2 shows, and on hundreds of occasions, literally hundreds of thousands of people of every size and shape of T-shirt have shouted back the refrain, pinched from Psalm 6: “How long (to sing this song).” I had thought of it as a nagging question, pulling at the hem of an invisible deity whose presence we glimpse only when we act in love. How long hunger? How long hatred? How long until creation grows up and the chaos of its precocious, hell-bent adolescence has been discarded? I thought it odd that the vocalising of such questions could bring such comfort — to me, too.
But to get back to David, it is not clear how many of these psalms David or his son Solomon really wrote. Some scholars suggest that the royals never dampened their nibs and that there was a host of Holy Ghost writers. Who cares? I didn’t buy Leiber and Stoller — they were just his songwriters. I bought Elvis.
The Book of Psalms, with this introduction by Bono is published tomorrow by Canongate as part of a new series of pocket canons.

May 28

Tomorrow is Saturday, May 28.
For most, it will be a normal Saturday, filled with sleeping in, baseball, t-ball and softball games.
Many will wake up, throw on some old clothes and get out and work in the yard.
A really good friend of mine, Leslie Leech, will be married tomorrow afternoon.
But for me and my family, it will be another first.
May 28 was the day my sister, Amy, planned to say her own wedding vows with my best friend Matt Lehmann.
Yet, God had other plans.
I still don’t understand it. I probably never will.
You always think, “This will never happen to us. It only happens to other people.”
Well now, we’re everyone else’s other people.
I’m not sure how I feel about tomorrow.
Our family will be gathering together at my aunt and uncles home with Matt’s family.
I’m almost dreading it. I know it’s better for everyone to be together tomorrow than moping at home, but for some reason, bringing everyone together means more moping and more sorrow.
My friend Chris said it best (out of the blue) yesterday.
“When you have a jig-saw puzzle and all the pieces are tossed about, you don’t really realize any pieces are missing. But when you put the puzzle together and you have one piece missing – it makes a huge difference.”
For me, I hope to have fun, laugh a lot and enjoy the day – but I almost wonder if that’s even possible.
Will the strain and sorrow on everyone’s heart over shadow everything?
I wish I could just bring my laptop along and blog everything that’s said or done. But would anyone else really want to know?
I’m sure the people around me get tired of me talking about Amy. It tends to come up in half my conversations.
I miss her greatly, but I don’t want to dwell on that. I just want to tell everyone how Godly and amazing she was in life and in death.
I want to tell everyone crying for her, “Shake it off. Amy would hate to know you’re crying for her.”
But that seems rude and crude. And if they ever catch me crying — I’d punch them in the face for saying it to me.
C.S. Lewis wrote after his wife’s death, “I’ve become an embarassement to all my friends. They don’t know how to respond to me. I hate the people who bring it up. And I hate the people who don’t.”
People say, “You’ll get over it. You’ll move on.”
I don’t think you ever really will. There’s still that missing piece of the puzzle.
It’s like telling an amputee they’ll get over the loss of a leg.
You don’t get over it — you adjust.
So, there are my plans for the weekend. I hope I didn’t just throw out a huge downer on yours.
If so — simply turn off your computer, walk away and pretend you never read this.
But know this: Blessed are they who mourn, for they will be comforted.
And Jesus is the friend of a wounded heart.